Brand New, The Fillmore Silver Spring, MD, 07/13/14.
Warning: A new foe has appeared.

Brand New, The Fillmore Silver Spring, MD, 07/13/14.

Warning: A new foe has appeared.

Brand New, The Fillmore Silver Spring, MD, 07/13/14.
I wonder if I will ever go to a Brand New show and be front row dead center and not front row side.

Brand New, The Fillmore Silver Spring, MD, 07/13/14.

I wonder if I will ever go to a Brand New show and be front row dead center and not front row side.

Brand New, Mann Center PA, 07/12/14.
There isn’t a single photo that came out well. I hate outdoor venues, but I love Brand New.

Brand New, Mann Center PA, 07/12/14.

There isn’t a single photo that came out well. I hate outdoor venues, but I love Brand New.

I recently learned via Facebook that a former co-worker of mine has been diagnosed with cancer and is currently undergoing chemotherapy. We’re the same age. We only had a few encounters during work. To me she always looked lethargic or sickly, or just apathetic. Even her tone of voice. But I figured that’s what she was like and not because she is sick. But I don’t know if she’s been sick for two years. I don’t know if she was in remission or anything like that. But she just always seemed sick, whether physically or emotionally.

With this and the recent death of beloved celebrity, Robin Williams, I have realized my own mortality. Any day I can be diagnosed with a terminal illness or suffer an aneurysm or get into a car accident or take my own life. We are all just inching closer to death with each breath we take and it can’t be stopped. I often wish for my life to end but I always imagine it as an instantaneous death rather than a slow and painful one. I have no control over which one it could be because I could never take my own life willingly. Well at least not now. Probably if I ever get to 70.

Brand New at Boston Calling Music Festival, MA, on May 25 2014.
I am probably going to buy a fitted hat just because Jesse wears one too.

Brand New at Boston Calling Music Festival, MA, on May 25 2014.

I am probably going to buy a fitted hat just because Jesse wears one too.

Death Cab For Cutie at Boston Calling Music Festival, MA, on May 24, 2014.

Title and Registration. I wish I had recorded Ben jumping into the crowd and right on top of me.

Warpaint at Boston Calling Music Festival, MA, 05/25/14.
If I didn’t see Brand New this would have been my favorite show of the weekend. I missed them a couple of weeks ago at a free show, and they’re coming back in October, so I hope I don’t miss them again.

Warpaint at Boston Calling Music Festival, MA, 05/25/14.

If I didn’t see Brand New this would have been my favorite show of the weekend. I missed them a couple of weeks ago at a free show, and they’re coming back in October, so I hope I don’t miss them again.

Sometimes when you go to a bathroom in a restaurant there’s a giant yellow lady angrily staring at you.

Sometimes when you go to a bathroom in a restaurant there’s a giant yellow lady angrily staring at you.

Did you even try.

Did you even try.

I can’t wait until I get a real full time job. Ideally I’d be earning enough money to move out, be able to go out for drinks a couple of times a week, buy drugs, and see Brand New across the US (or even globe) if I ever wanted to. I see myself in my own apartment (or sharing one) with a dog and I have a guitar, bass, and set of drums, each of which I have mastered. In my spare time, I perform covers of my favorite songs on each instrument. I can walk around naked and free. I am finally happy. But I am still dead inside.